1/1/2011

My First Post of the year of 2011..

I got no BIG feeling about the number changing in the YEAR..

LOL..

2010 changes to 2011..

I don quite understand wat is it for the people to get so high jz for dat second...

well,

WHO CARES..

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLES :D

A SONG FOR MYSELF FOR THE 2011 YEAR..

戒情人 郑中基

你说你最近 爱上了一个
喜欢喝几杯的人
你不习惯他的冷
却离不开他忧郁眼神
我想你只是 重新爱上了
被一个人疼的温存
你总是说要戒情人
却有个贪杯的灵魂
喝一口能够让你醉几分
谁让你沈溺就让你伤神
哭一场是否真的可以擦亮眼睛
输给了寂寞的人对待自己最残忍
喝一口眼神换心碎几分
谁让你沈溺就让你伤神
醉一场是否真的可以痛个过瘾
希望你夜深人去酒入柔肠不会化泪痕
我想你只是 重新爱上了
被一个人疼的温存
你总是说要戒情人
却有个贪杯的灵魂
喝一口能够让你醉几分
谁让你沈溺就让你伤神
哭一场是否真的可以擦亮眼睛
输给了寂寞的人对待自己最残忍
喝一口眼神换心碎几分
谁让你沈溺就让你伤神
醉一场是否真的可以痛个过瘾
希望你夜深人去酒入柔肠不会化泪痕
喝一口眼神换心碎几分
谁让你沈溺就让你伤神
醉一场是否真的可以痛个过瘾
希望你夜深人去酒入柔肠不会化泪痕

so,hope everything will b going smoothly this year ba.. :)

2010--->>2011

Alright,

I know it's 2011 soon..

so SHUT UP!!

Seriously,

I don hv a so called HAppy Feeling abt it..

Jz another yr..

jz another day...

when 2011 comes,it means i nid 2 BACK KL again..

i hate it when i felt time passes too fast here at JB..

Actually,

it's not very Hell Yeah happy in JB as well..

mayb i shud jz change a country,dat would b a better idea,

i guess..

i DO have this plan..

From 2010--->2011

jz a day in difference..

well,shud i say,

jz a second in different?

haiz...I feel OLD ad,when i'm jz goin into 21..

Lolz...life still nid 2 go on..

even i have to go back to KL..

ALRIGHT,

i admit,i don wish to get back to KL..

but i got no choice,right?

Life leaves us no choice by "helping" us to pick the only choice we have..

"别无选择,就是生活给我们的选择"

sudden quote..LOLz..

I'm still me while i'm not me..

no one understands me,cz i'm always not me with me in it..

haha..confusing har?

LOLz..

2011

wat shud i expect from u?

new life? nah...don thk so..i'm stubborn..

smthg special? nope,as long as it's smooth..

smthg poops out?

==" it seems like i hvn learn my lesson..

i wan nth but simple.. :)

I shall await the challenge in life to jz fell upon me :D

2011,here comes the double character, ME XD

Part 2(Nov..2010)

Well..

Nov still hvn end..

this yr's nov is damn long for me..= ="

The exam week

(8 Nov till 16 Nov)

I studied...really,i Did studied..

but i dono whether i had studied enough or not...

So i jz went into the exam hall...get myself sat onto the chair..

and ans the ques...i dono my ans are correct or not..

i jz WROTE wat i tot is right...= ="

i knw this sound dangerous..

but i cant do anythg but wait for the judges to judge my paper..

Dangerous me...As usual..= ="

and i jz WONT regret...how come i'm dat stubborn?!

Well,i don hv an ans to dat....LOL XD

16 Nov 2010

it's the last paper day...

haha..after the last paper..

Me,Yen Ning n Shi Hui..

jz get ourself onto the MONORAIL..

and went to GREENBOX..

haha..i jz don care wat the hell my result will b,i mean at dat moment..LOL

now,i'm worry..as usual..

i found out,it's a cycle for me...

i knw i will do it again..n worry again..

it's like not gonna stop..

well,this is me,i guess..LOL

17 Nov 2010

i get crazy n went shopping myself...

hahaha...i was bored in the room..

nth to do...

Life without my com,it really sucks...

I miss my laptop...arghhhh...

get back to the topic..I went n walk by myself..

thking of stuff n buying stuff..

i bought my stuff in jz an hr..haha..

i'm thinking abt wat had been pass..

to me,it's a past tense...

to her,it's still hvn pass...

u don gt my point...jz like i don understand wat u're trying to do..

let natural take the course..

i got nth to say to u..let Us b jz U n Me..

2 parallel lines which doesn't have a intersection point..

18 Nov 2010..

Well,i went out AGAIN..

shopping at the SAME place..

but this time..

with frens :)

We shop ate n drink..

haha...

i can only say

DAMN...Women jz LOVE SHOPPING!!

= =" i get tired after not even 2hrs walk.

thy can still have the mood to actually try on the clothes...

this KILLS me...= ="

19 Nov 2010..

I went college...

isssshhhhhhh...

1 word 2 describe, BORING!!

i went thr..

listening to the 1st section of the day...

(8am-10am)

it's abt the pre-clinical thg..Ok,at least smthg related to me..

i did listen..concentrated... :)

the 2nd section..

(10:30am-12:15pm)

OMG...the topic was COMMUNICATION..

well,i din sleep..although i plan to sleep..

= =" dono y i jz cant sleep..

so i took my pencil n draw draw draw..

in conclusion,i cant draw...LOL

the 3rd section

(2pm-5pm)

Ok,i slept in this section...

the topic was NILAI MURNI..

since i don have nilai murni,so i might as well don listen..

so with my remarkable logic..i slept...

hahahahaha...ridiculous student..XD

BORING day in conclude..really bores me OFF..

20 Nov 2010...

woke up 10smthg am..

nth to do in the room..

roommates are all OUT for shopping AGAIN..

at the same place,i guess..

nth to do,so i started this blog..

nth to do,so i'm thking wat to do next..

nth to do,so i'm counting down...

i'm goin HOME soon...

as long as i pass my paper....

ARGHHHHHH....@@"

Nov....2010

Nov 2010

It's jz the starting of it...

2day is jz 2 Nov only...

i dono wat 2 say...

exam's on the way...

feel like the subjects are challenging me...

in a way of arrogant...

n it's damn irritating...

8 Nov...first subject...

sickening BIOCHEMISTRY...

OMG,i jz hate this sub...arghhh...

I hvn study...

seriously,i totally din touch...

i jz woke up be4 i'm typing this post...

every1 is studying CRAZILY....

I'm sleeping CRAZILY....

O.M.G.

i don wanna fail...aaaahhhh....

the another matter...

SHE!!!

stop looking me...

aaaahhh...

i feel like jz slapping her...

LOL

as if i will do so...

==" life sucks...

STOP IT!!!

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

buddyyyyyyySSSS!!

whr are u all wor....=="

-Boring me,10:46pm...

written after i woke up from a nap...-

2010.2010

2010.2010

special day...

happens only once in 100yrs..

IN this damn special day

i miss u..

i feel like asking you,

How are you?

==" really feeling like slapping myself when i was thking abt this ques...

i said bye bye,and i wan 2 knw hw are u...

am i brainless or wat?!

@@" idiot me 2nite..LOL

==" if my baobei saw this,

i thk i'm gonna get questions..LOL

it was jz a sudden thinking..and some

guiltiness,i guess..

i shouldn't had played

i knw it was jz a game...

WE KNEW it was a game...

but in the end,

u change ur mind..

when the game ends,

u became the one who actually cried n wanted 2 change the story...

i was hoping u smile n accept the ending..

i din knw,in the end,

u told me,

i love u..

Till Now,

I still wanna say,

I hope We Were still good friends..

and i REALLY miss you...

I'm waiting for you to calm your heart,n face me calmly..

OMG,such a nice day,

i'm talking abt rubbish again...LOL

well,

EVERYONE,be happy forever..

You cry.the time still goes..

You Smile,the time still goes..

so,y don u jz smile while the time goes..

My buddy,WINNIE cheng...

think positive? LOL

don gt too sensitive...

mayb u will thk i'm bad..but,really,

think properly...

My DEAR hiao de,Jessica....

WEI!!! take care of urself la...

tak tahan you lo...

OMG,i miss u soooo damn much,in such a special day..

well,i miss u everyday...LOL

My best-est,Elaine...

HEY!! maintain your hairlook la..

haha...since wan CUTE CUTE tn make it nice nice la..

don sooooo malas la...XD

I miss you lo,haha..

wan 2 kacau u MUCH MUCH,this weekend..LOL

err,my buddy? IRENE...

i dono can call u buddy or not...LOL

u ah...dono wat to say ah....

don thk toooo much...

don play too much ah...

dono hurt hw many ppl's heart le...LOL~XD

JOKING la.. miss kacau-ing you...LOL

wan to kacau u KAOKAO oso,this weekend...LOL

MY kisiao best Frens,ALICIA,AMANDA

hahaha..i LOVE PLAYING with u all la...

i wan to go out with u all again...

omg...cant believe i actually damn miss u 2 ah...

life sucks totally without the "fei" stuff... :D

My Baobei,Elin...

i knw tml u will open blogspot..LOL

so i purposely update my blogspot...LOL

JK de la...

take care of urself..don thk him le la...

u got me...LOL

open n update le,add rmb gv me~~ :)

WITHOUT YOU GUYS,MY LIFE SUCKS!! XD

-Maible 2338 20/10/2010-

No Title...

*我不在乎

你到底忘了没有

我不在乎

你到底在乎些什么

我不在乎

你到底想些什么

我不在乎

你到底想做什么

我不在乎

你到底要做什么小动作

我只在乎

你他妈的 有胆敢动我的人

你就是找死!!!!*

哈哈哈...

看到你的这篇,我第一个反应就是

狂笑 :D

不顶你啊...不过谢了 :)

爱惨你~~~:D

JESSICA SEET!!!!

HEY!!

my dear friend...

which is in another country now...

i miss u...

seriously..OK...

XD

U must take care of urself...

alone out thr..

anythg don hide inside ur dat not VERY big de heart..

haha..

ME,this friend will b thr for u :)

Don u try to diet by NOT eating hor...

rmb to eat HEATHY food...

eat healthy food is better way  :)

take care of ur dat HYPERSENSITIVE nose..

don catch cold thr..

n rmb 2 bring a BIG PACK of tissue in ur bag...XD

Don over stress urself...

don tension..

Rmb take care of ur mental state as well.. :)

try to b remain as urself thr...

RMB!!

b too nice to some1 might jz like being cruel to urself...

take care of ur ownself 1st...

when u're free only go n hlp ppl if thy really nid it...XD

OK!!

i knw u sure thk i'm very NAGGY

but i jz feel like telling u...

SO

u better read finish hor....LOL~XD

TAKE CARE MY DEAR DEAR FRIEND :D

PS: whr are u now? in dubai?or in UK le??

i still don hv ur news leh...><"

waiting ur news patiently,i guess..XD

无题

"我放开你了

我已不爱了

我与你是真的不适合

就当做最后我放弃你了

关上门以后

我是真不爱你了"

我改了这首原本名为

<不爱了> By 李玖哲

这是一小段

我还没改完

*我的天

你今天又来找我

找我做什么?

不要找我了啦

说你的心事?

算了啦..找你的爱人啦..

说你口里的回忆

靠..还是免了吧..我的脑很忙的..

*你又来了

说你爱过我

我直接 汗颜

很想串你

说 "谢谢 爱 过"

可是 算了吧

就听听我BUDDY说

不要太拽

可能我能减少减少

*你

YES..I'm talking abt U

整天没事做 就跑来看我的部落格的人

不要来缠我!!

那时 缠了差不多两年

你不显吖?

现在有那么一个赞的人 就不要来找我这个大烂人了啦

烦死了

PS: 不知道为什么

最近 你们联络上我了?

我 不要 跟你们纠缠了

拜托了

我 爱了 累了 也做了选择

不要来跟我说 那些话了

我不属于任何人的世界

我爱躲在自己的世界

过自己一个人的生活 :)

第一个

今天

我谈起你

那个与我缠了将近两年的你

想起了你

就想起 那疼你入骨的人

现在 我没和你联络

所以 只希望 你好好的珍惜他

你的情绪化 我也希望改了

你的转牛角尖 我也希望改了

你的莫名其妙 最好是改到好像没有过

哈哈..

突然想

你现在喝醉酒 应该不会叫我的NickName了吧?

==" 不对..你应该是幸福的 所以 不会去喝酒了

简直是白痴啊我

狂笑 :D

说真的

谢谢你爱过我 :)

对不起 我没接受你

对不起 我伤了你

对不起 我不够果断

对不起 我在乎自己的感受多过你的

原谅我 好不?

说真的

上次在CS看到我 怎么整个人害臊成那个样啊?

虽然你是第一次看到我啦

也不算看到咯

从头到尾 头是看地上的咯 囧rz

害我不知道要怎么办 -_-"

说真的

有没有恨过你自己

为什么那时那么傻?

几乎每天跟我吵架..

*虽然是你突然发脾气 对我大骂*

几乎每天我们都得等看谁要让步

*虽然常常是你让步*

几乎每天我得很懊恼

*谁叫你 坚持一定要睡前电话*

几乎...

啊...回忆在转... :)

我突然发现

其实我们那时很暧昧

是很 很 很 暧昧

现在才发现 有点太迟 -_-"

可能那时我有点点在乎你

不过 没答应你 似乎是对的

因为 你遇到比我好很多很多的人 :)

PS: 这篇叫 回忆篇~

你不要给我又什么

"不小心"看到厚...然后又问我那些问题..

有那么一个他 就好好珍惜他 :)

她

只想跟她说

好好照顾自己 不要再喝酒

不要嚷着要学抽烟

不要说 这段爱只有你在陷入

因为 我在放手时 才知道

我爱上你了

抱歉 请原谅我对爱情的慢

我不是个聪明的孩子

但我也是个 不会后悔的孩子

理智永远胜过感性的孩子

有一天

如果 我去你的房里 桌子

那被锁头守护着的抽屉

我开启

那么 我会看到什么?

是你说的回忆?

还是 我那残缺的爱?

PS: 今天的我 疯了

什么字都打得出来

My holiday...IN JB

I'm back in KL....

well...

to b exact, i went back to JB on 7/9/10 nite....

haha..

7/9/10

i reach JB at almost 10smthg...

but i acc mum to do some stuff

*see~i'm such a good gal...XD*

8/9/10

i woke up on my beloved bed..

i really found out,i miss it sooo much...

Finally,i slept the whole nite,without waking up...

n i woke up naturally without the stupid alarm clock..LOL~

well,it's a relaxing day...

Evening Till nite,i went eating steamboat n SingK with

ElaineMei,Xiu Bak,Winnie,MinLaopo~

well,as usual,the SingK part...kena buang aeroplane as welll...=="

9/9/10

i woke up terribly LATE...

i din slp to b exact...=="

had fun dat day as well...

went singK again with form 6 frens~

tn met my BaoBei - Elin in CS~

haha...seriously i HAD fun~ :D

thx :)

10/9/10

this is the day...

the family day,FINALLY...LOL...

i went out with my family~

buy stuff~jalan jalan~

i kind of miss it...mayb the last we went out was toooo long ago...

11/9/10

hahaha...this is a PACKING day...ACTUALLY...

but in the end,i went out with Michelle Jie...

thx to her,i was manage to buy my sweater...

hehe...in the nite,i FINALLY ate dinner at home...haha~

my mum cook nice food for me...hehe...

only in the nite,only i felt like packing my luggage to go to TAIWAN...

i pack till half....I had a 30mins plus almost 1hr fon call with someone...

which actually damn miss me...XD

*don suspect,i'm being arrogant XD*

Well,i rush my packing..n went out yamcha again...LOL

I really had a nice chat dat day...kinda small relief i guess..

thx XiuBak n Winnie..kinda nid dat i guess...

17/9/10

i came back to JB...from taiwan...

haha...actually i was like kinda hateful y my holiday finish jz like dat?

well,i was a bit short temper dat day...hahaa...sorry...

I slept n enjoy my bed dat nite..

18/9/10

i woke up,n tot

"SHXT,goin back KL tml..."

ok,this prove it's not gonna b a good day...

even the weather say so...LOL

i woke up in a kinda bad mood...

BUT i don care...

after my Break-lunch..

i went hair cut..with XiuBak n Lin~

THX TO XIU BAK n LIN

if not i cant tahan derek lo..=="

passed my present from TaiWan to XiuBak as well..

*i really 4gt whether did i buy a gift for Lin or not...i'm OLD ad..*

in the nite,i went YAMCHA with ElaineMei,XiuBak n JiaQi..

haha...i passed the present from taiwan to ElaineMei as well..

seriously,i dono whether thy like it or not...

19/9/10

this is the day...

i went to larkin bus stop...

n met XiaoMei...

tn we went on to the journey to KL...

21/9/10

DAMN...i hope i'm in JB..

i don hate here..

but i cant find any familiarity feeling here...haiz....

i nid 2 TAHAN till 3/11/10

the Deepavali Holiday..haha...

i will b BACK IN JB~ XD

PS:i miss every1 in JB..my family,my buddies...

my bed...my stuff...my mum's cooking...

OMG...JZ EVERYTHING IN JB!!!!!!!!

TO Winnie Cheng,ur present have to wait i go back baru gv u lo~ :D

记得,你我

我记得

你说过 如果我们不理智

那么我们会在一起吗?

我记得

我回答 如果是那样

我 真的 没答案

我记得

你当时 冷静的思考后说

我们还是不会在一起

因为 你不会给我没结果的东西

我直接 静掉

不是因为你那么说

而是我不记得我跟你说过

没结果的事

我从不给你任何希望

那么 这没结果的爱

我连期待 都没给你

甜蜜 我收回

你恨我吗?

知道你不会来看这里

所以我想说

对不起 我真的爱过你

你 与 我

看到久违的MSN头像突然出现

我的反应 没想象中那样

震惊 紧张 苦恼

却是

小小的疑惑

"你怎么把我unblock了?"

这是我脑海里想到的第一句话

而不是 我该怎么办

也不是 胡思乱想

接着 我认为 你不会来找我

最后 我直接哇塞

最近的你怎么每次都做让我惊讶的事

你来找我了 @@"

第一句竟是

我把你unblock了,我想面对你

我送了3个点加一个哦给你

我想 你应该很想杀了我

我也不知道怎么跟你聊的

我以为

我的每一句会用我那颗脑想过才send给你

最后 并没有

你说 我生气了哦

我说 你生气就好

这应该是最经典的对话

然后 就变成

你告诉我你的近况

我就负责看你写些什么..

我发现

我根本就没有很想知道你的一切

对于你的一切 我就是带着

你想说就说 不想说就罢了

想起以前的自己怎么对你

那也差太多了

我跟某X谈了这件事

他只说一句

你不在乎 不介意 不理会他的一切

那么 现在 你还爱他吗?

我

不

知

道

啊

!

PS: 台北之旅 真好玩哦 :D

9/9/10的凌晨

你知道了

我换了戒指

似乎很不开心

可是 你却不知道

它系着的是同样的一个思念

跟老朋友出门闹

闹到最后

唉 我只知道

我该学会 面对

我该学会 放手

我该学会 假装

可是 这一切的思想

在你跟我说

"我去喝酒 迟点回家 晚安"

就真的跟我说再见

我的火气就上来了

难道你不知道 自己的胃 不能喝

难道你不知道 自己喝酒 2灌就半醉了

难道 你真的真的不知道?!

如果你是要刺激我 那么你成功了

如果你觉得这样 很值得 那么随便你

你不知道

有一种思念 叫做不联系

唉

为什么你要打电话来跟我发酒疯?

为什么要跟我说那些垃圾话?

我真的不能睡了

还没改好的 昵称

还没改好的 宠溺

还没改好的 思念

我决定把它改了

我要回 我自己.........

2/8/2010

well,starting of august ad...

HERE bores me OFFF...

it's not dat i miss home...

jz feel bored...

it's not dat i miss my buddies DAT much...

jz feel bored...

it's not like i HATE this place...

jz feel bored...

it's not like I don HV friends here,i HAVE NICE friends here...

BUT

I FELT BORED...n YET!!

I DONO Y?!!!

ISSSSSSHHHHHH....

i got funny nice cute 2 chinese gal as my "little sisters"....LOL~XD

i got skinny tall n SMART gal as my room mate,which is GOOD for me...:D

i got a MACHO SMART DAMN GOOD n COOL ASKAR as my room mate,n HEY,dat's damn COOL!!

i got a kind of mature but always act kiddo gal as my room mate,which always accidentally do stuff which is damn funny for us to laugh like gila...LOL~XD

i got a bian tai bian tai friend which NEVER feel embarrassing whenever she say funny YELLOW stuff,n make me laugh...LOL~XD

i got a TALL TALL BIG SISTER as my friend,which actually smtimes make me feel like i really got a elder sister~:D

SO!! wat m i unsatisfied with?! hur?!

Not Dat Nice Looking College,but having FUNNY ppl inside...

Not Dat Nice Looking Hostel,but Having hmmm...weird? stuff goin on....

Not Dat Nice Looking CourseMates,LOL~XD

but all hv nice hearts~ :)

WELL!!

KL BORES ME OFF MAN!!! XD

it's end of july..

i start my college life on the 1st day of july..
orientation for a few day..
knw a few friends...

my room mates are cute..haha..
i hv a siamese n 2 sabahan as room mates..hehee..
funny siamese gal who loves to eat spicy food...n getting the side effect from her stomach~ XD
skinny sabahan gal who dono hw 2 eat spicy food at all,n start to learn now...LOL~XD
MACHO sabahan gal who ACTUALLY is a soldier~~~ damn,she is jz way sooooo good in sports~haha..

thr's only 3 chinese gal n 1 chinese boy in the cls which is actually 97 ppl in total...
i'm actually having fun mixing with sabahans~
thy are CRAZY man~~~haha...
still happy,currently...although everyday i'm like rushing here n thr..but it's ok~

THIS IS LIFE~ :)

don ask me whether i miss home..
i don hv time 2 thk/miss at all...
i'm trying my best n doing my best to adapt here..

don ask me whether i regret or not..
i cant regret..so i wont thk abt it at all...

GAMBATEH~ :)

最近-我 (end of June)

我真的闲了

我不知道自己在干什么

我不知道自己会不会后悔

我不知道自己能不能撑下去

我什么都不知道

有点点傍徨

有点点迷茫

有点点混乱

有点点崩溃

这些feel 一直在打转

这样的人生

是我要的吗

就算不是

也得变成是

谁说 勉强是没有幸福的

我偏偏就是要勉强到 幸福

*我根本没把握咯 囧*

我会汗颜到脱水咯..

今天早上起来

OMG

我喉咙不舒服

天阿..不要这样啦..

我的喉咙~~~~~

*我真的疯了 囧*

我也不知道要写些什么

我只想把写blog 变成一个习惯

我在努力着

改变

成熟

同时 做自己

难吧?

有志者事竟成! 哇咔咔~ XD

我会加油的~

*有点自high的现象 囧*

不要乱叫

昵称

不要乱叫

我很反感

你不是我的谁

就不要自以为是的

叫着 昵称

本来印象就已经是还好罢了

靠!

我

反

感

了

其实

其实

我已经习惯你

习惯你在我身边打转

习惯你的胡闹

习惯你的一切

其实

你让我明白很多事情

不是只有理性

还有感性

其实

你说我教了你很多

我说你让我知道的更多

原来 我错过了那么多

其实

我没告诉你我的事

不是因为我不肯说

而是我有太多曾经

我该怎么说

其实

你说对了

我曾经太爱玩

所以 现在我是真的后悔了

对于几个人 我惭愧了

其实

你要的生日礼物 或者说 生日愿望吧

我能给

只是 我不要给你这么虚伪的回忆

其实

那天你说的那句话

我听到了 真真切切的听到了

我只是吓到了

所以 装没听到

很窝囊吧?

其实

当你想我的时候

可以直接跟我说的

我不会亏你

因为 有时我也会想你

其实

你问为什么不介绍我朋友给你认识

我说我真的很不想介绍

因为我想要 我和你

就只是我和你

其实

我想问你

你怎么能拿我当挡箭牌?

我就这么"好用"?

其实

我想问你

认识我这么烂的一个人

你后悔吗?

其实

我想问你

你怎么会让我这样的管着你?惯着你?

其实

我想问你

你不觉得我和你

现在的状况 很别扭吗?

其实

我想问你

如果那天

在我给你的24小时思考的那天

你的答案不一样的话

我和你

会不会是我们?

其实

我知道

就算我再给你多少个24小时

你的答案依旧是一样的

因为 反过来 如果是我

答案也会一样